By WillowJon Collamer
The meaning of my life has always been to live fully within the moment, creating myself as co pilot to the divine natural magic of life and emerge, a living, breathing, dancing, flying, God. Living dangerously to me was getting a nine to five job, paying back all my loans, and getting a nice big house with a white picket fence to watch cable and eat T.V. dinners for the rest of my life. I have taken, what my step dad likes to call, the hard long road for most of my life. I learned like many through much pain, struggle, and challenge. I spent many days and nights thinking and worrying about the what if’s I don’t have this and what If I don’t have that and where will I sleep tonight, and all that jazz, but at the end of the day I always felt the world was my friend and it wanted to see my succeed. So I embraced this adventure, fly by the seat of my pants lifestyle for most of my life, but not as I’m getting older I would like to use my stories, writings, and videos to provide a lifestyle and home for me.
I’ve always used my adventures, music, traveling, comedy, and story telling as the gold that filed my lifestyle. With writing, video production, music, and traveling I get to meet people face to face and have a truly authentic once in a lifetime experience. I have the gift of gab and if your around me for more than a few hours, my super talkative, immature, impulsive attitude can be too much for most people to handle, but I don’t take it personally anymore like I did when I was young and wanted everyone to like me. Now that I’m older, I’ve learned not everyone is going to like me and it’s more important that I like myself.
I’m very honest sharing my struggles with addiction, alcoholism, depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. I’ve been a super impulsive person for as long as I can remember. I’ve set myself on fire, cut myself up with knives, fought with authority and asshole most of my life, and been addicted to most hard drugs, alcohol, self harm, pornography, sugar, you name it, I’ve probably done it. I try to take judgement out of my life as much as possible because it doesn’t do anything to help me.
I may seem like someone who is alway happy and full of smiles and joy when you see me out and about and I am, but this is partly due to the fact that I do, like so many people, struggle with my identity, my sense of success in society, and my self worth. I try to be positive and use grace and creativity to keep finding new ways to enjoy life and maintain a healthy mind, body, spirit connection. I really enjoy talking to strangers, hearing their perspectives on life, where they grew up and worked and who they fell in love with, and what the think about imagination, creativity, music, dreams, spirits, myths and magic. I want to say thank you very much for reading about my life and becoming part of the Willow’s World story. Together we make humanity the gift of joy if can be.